The Red Letter Day.....
Suddenly all I felt was nothingness....
Everything seems to have stood still... No pain..No sound...Things happening in Slow.. Motion..
Everything standing still.. Total Nothingness...
Then came the most excruciating pain.... Most unbearable pain...... I couldn’t breathe....
I knew I was going to die......
My life just flashed before my eyes... All that’s important to me in life came flooding back to my memory Something in the back of my mind told me to hang-on.. For the sake of those loved ones.... Sake of those who mattered to me... Sake of those what mattered to me... I just kept breathing slowly.... Just a little short breaths... Little baby breaths..... Because I knew that is what I had to do at that very precise moment... And nothing else mattered..
It was much later I found out that I remained unconscious for nearly three days at the Intensive Care Unit of the Colombo General Hospital.
I came around...Only to discover...
That my whole world has come to a halt...
That my whole world has turned upside down..
That my whole life has been stolen right under my nose...
Unable to walk again..
Unable control your bodily functions Being dependant on the others for every little thing that you took for granted in the past..
It was my life no more..
I felt like a stranger looking in.. Didn’t know what was important and what wasn’t. Wasn’t sure what would be my next step....
There were times I wanted to remain unconscious...
But I knew that was not the answer.
I knew I had to make decisions.
I knew burying my head in the sand is not the answer. I had fallen big time..
I had to get up, shake the dust off and pick myself off that downward spiral because I had a long journey ahead of me.
It was a long journey and every long journey has begun with that very important first step...
So I took my first step.... Towards working on my way to recovery..
Towards rebuilding my shattered life... So I took my first step..
Without actually moving my feet.! Being paralyzed, being on a wheel chair due to my gunshot injury needless to say changed my whole life.
I was prepared to go to the ends of the earth to return to normalcy...to walk again.